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#27

Feels good to flash my real smile again. =)

Finally deleted all of our old photos.

I’m not about to lie, I feel really good about it.

I still laugh at myself thinking about the fact that my first REAL boyfriend

became gay. Ahahahaa. Damn.

Rambling, don’t mind me.

So 2011 is around the corner, doesn’t really feel like it though. I know that’s what like everyone and their mother is saying but it’s for real. I remember back when I would get so excited for the holidays to come around. It’s not that I hate it or anything. I actually really love it. This time of year is my absolute favorite because everything is so happy. It’s supposed to be happy. The lights, the cold, shopping, family, vacation & having someone special to keep you warm. That’s what makes me anticipate the holidays. I think it’s because I’ve been let down these past years when wanting great holidays. But now that everythings settled down I actually had a chill holiday this year. Last year I think I even cried on Christmas *or was it Thanksgiving* because my parents argued every fucking day. I miss my dad.. but it’s better that my parents are apart. At least I don’t have to hear the constant screaming from my mother’s loud voice. At least I don’t have to see the pain in my father’s eyes anymore. At least Christmas was calm this year. I really wish I could’ve heard from Daddy though. I miss his beautiful singing voice & how he would make up songs on the spot from that particular moment. Haha. Fuuuh </3 Yesterday was Aaron’s last day home before he had to go to boot camp. He won’t be gone for long, he’ll be back in like 10 days more or less. But the fact that he’s actually far from me is hard to think about. He lives like 5 minutes away from me and now he’s hours away. It’s a weird feeling what I feel for him. So fucking cliche right now haha but fuck. I love him dude. I really do. I’m just glad I got to be with him yesterday. It almost didn’t happen cus my dumbass never plans until day of or last minute. But he came over & we just spent time together. 2011. Couple months from January I’ll be 18. Legal. I’ll be a high school graduate. What the fuck am I going to do…